Well over a hundred family and friends from all over the globe have sent me their love, well wishes, and prayers as I shared bits of my situation on my personal FB profile over the last two days.
I am beyond grateful for each and every heartfelt word of sympathy and empathy and care. As Bette Midler’s song goes, each of you are the wind beneath my wings.
Yet I want to clarify my thoughts on something today.
Many wished me a speedy recovery. Makes good sense… you get a disease, you treat it, you recover.
And cancer is a disease. In fact, it’s the generic term used for a whole slew of diseases, with the common trait of abnormal cell proliferation. In simpler terms, it means our body creates an abnormal cell that goes on to divide uncontrollably and moves on to destroy many of the healthy cells that make up our body. Untreated it often leads to suffering and death.
In July, I was diagnosed with a cancerous tumor in my breast. I had the lump removed surgically. And my post-operation recovery went well.
Does that mean I’ve already recovered?
The post-op lab report informed me that my body is a fertile playground for more abnormal cells to grow. Not good, that.
But there is no indication that I still have the disease of cancer itself. At least that is what I choose to believe right now.
This year-long treatment program I described in Why this journey? is about cleaning my body’s playground to make it more difficult for abnormal cells to grow there.
The process to do this cleaning is taxing on the body and usually causes nasty side-effects. It remains to be seen which ones I will get, and I take this on day-by-day, as I always have, and by staying present and positive. Right now, on day 2, I’m feeling fine.
Accepting “what is” is part of my character makeup. I readily accepted that my life would change course with this diagnosis. It won’t be the first time, and hopefully not the last.
You have to be willing to give up the life you planned, and instead, greet the life that is waiting for you.Joseph Campbell
So, let’s see and embrace what more I need to recover from. Hopefully just a few side-effects, and in the long term it’s not cancer again. That’s done.
Do you think I’m being over-simplistic, over-optimistic? Share your thoughts or experience.
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